Saturday, June 9, 2012

Mourning, but Qualified to Live…

The wall that I hit after my last post in April was thirty feet thick, and it looked like this: 

I was in Target picking up an Rx only to see this display. I ran to the restroom nauseated and in tears at the reminder of my Mother's death. "She was only 51!" That was the litany that replayed in my mind...

Emotionally the wall I faced began to mount, and I felt like I had to dig my way through with a teaspoon. I was dreading my first May without my Mom: the days that lead up to Mother’s Day, the day itself (I slept through most of it), and the residual May mushiness. June couldn’t come quickly enough, but NOW June is here.

The smallest tools are more powerful than we may think; because, the teaspoon worked.  I see the sun.

I have gardens to tend...

8 comments:

  1. I can't imagine the pain and grief you have been going through, hun. I will, however, offer my virtual hugs and love.

    Embrace the sun, sweetie :-)

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  2. Hugs and kisses love!!! I know exactly how you feel. Ppl say it gets easier with time but I think we just learn to cope differently as time passes. Miss you:)

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    1. That means a lot Shani. I really didn't expect the feelings that I had... I miss you too :)

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  3. I know how you feel I picked up a Sister Mother's Day card and was almost in tears at the Target store, I had to quickly put it down and just walk away and pray. I have my moments but time does heal all wounds and a lot of prayer goes a long way....love you bethy

    Jone'

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  4. Deepest condolences. Day by day. Well wishes to you and good memories of your lovely mother. Lots of love your way.

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    1. Thank you Jennifer. I really do appreciate it.

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